Strange Life

There will be no fairy tale my dear

It's just made up inside your mind

A creation you can see and hear

But all of this are not well o' bind

Life is strange; out of the blue

Eventually things will change without a cue

Death is majestic; sure it is fear

But isn't it egoistic? Only if it's sheer

Can you think of it all the way?

Because anything has a path

Maybe this will take it away

Or maybe this will suffer us a lot

Whispering scream inside our soul

Tormented yet pure of flaw

Just a normal day so another week

Then a new month, just seemingly repeat

Go on a year will came

'Till today I manage to be sane

I'm worthless though valuable

No, I'm hopeless but I can still able

Darkness are here; then lights are lost

It overwhelms; it became my host

All was nothing I clutch to fight

Then I stop; Hope just lost its light

Here I say "I've change so much

But here I am strongly clutch"

Oh, why did I become ol' thyself be

I shouldn't have and conscience don't agree

Little do I know thy will come to hear

Many didn't know I kept shifting gear

I Walk too far, came to close, climb too high

Now I am down,  now I am lose,  fault all mine

Bumpy road I chose the path from

All the end will lead me home

Guess I take ahead journey to it

Came to be I'm being hit

Just a tiring life I am in

Mere enjoyment cannot fulfill

Oh, relax but it cannot be undone

Wait when came to rest; mind will never outrun

Lesser ,lesser, lesser faith; then all is gone

I thought to myself  "where would I have begun?'

Yet these thoughts are over; why I seems so lower?

Maybe it came all for me for I continue to sober

I hate it, I hate myself all things are made up

Just created a big lonely gap

Now be myself again; Wish I'll be back

But I'm currently stuck; help is I mostly lack

Silence was great for me

Through mist I will see

Clear thoughts sure will create

Impossibilities completely be bested

Now all of this are my actual thought

Be gentle and everything in here will sought

Through mind from the bottom heart

This is where all things will start

-CrisSon